Anxiety

Seriously dreading this treatment tomorrow. I have a longer than normal consultation scheduled with the Oncologist. I'm wanting her to give me so statistical data to help me psychologically force myself to go through these next 2 treatments. The last one was so awful, I'm really not wanting to go through the last two. I'm popping xanax like candy today and hoping the sleeping pill will knock me out and put me out of my misery for the evening. Seriously dreading hanging over the toilet for the next week....